no strings attached

I broke up with my boyfriend of about three days an hour ago. Purely because I had an epiphany, which was that I don't want to date anyone. I really like being single and flirting but I was miserable in that relationship. I don't wasn't it to be awkward so I told him it was because my sisters dad found out and freaked out. But, he wouldn't care, really. My epiphany was essentially that I don't want to be in a relationship with anyone no matter who they are because of how my childhood went. It was brutal and now I am destined to be forever alone and I have accepted such a thing and an okay with it. I like flirting and I like having no strings attached. I am afraid of commitment. I have just really realized it, I am afraid of commitment. it is already nice to know it. Bad to realize I'm terrified of it and.... Am forever alone, now. Thanks, life.